हेल एंड हेवन
well it's been awhile, time for more midnight ramblings unto myself.

alot of people try to hate everything be exclusive and show that they really have tast. that there thing is there thing.
the guy who likes everything is crazy,
the one who values it all is insane. right??
fuck you.
punk is dead don't bother greiving. where did you comefrom, what's the most imbarising music that you secretly like. how much do you lie to yourself about that sort of thing, people don't just sit around and talk about apples, i could say annything right now. think about yourself in context. of. the earth. of an ant. of a bumble bee. talk to animals. our thoughts creat reality. beleive in what you want. why bother being afraid, really? why give a shit?
i got hit by a car on my bycicle, it was an instant, i'm going the right way in the right place, and then oh, car hood infront of me, how can i take this, this is it, as i'm hitting the hood, will i survive or is this it, my death, i think as i smash onto the windsheald and then fly over the other side onto the pavement beond. i lie still for a moment feeling my body whandering whats broken and if it will heal and if i'm going to be in exessive debt to a hospital cus i don't have inshurance. than i stand up and laugh, ha it works, i think it all works. check to see if my legs and arms bend and they do.
i'm at a show and every ones afraid do make a fool of themselves.
i loved doing comunity service i want to go do it again. the old lady sorting cans in the basment insisted on giving my a bage of food. most of my old cristain friends don't know what critical mass is.
allot of people ask me how a sertain event was after they didn't attend it. i made and hung alot of flyers for Robert Kings speaking, knowing that no one i showed them to would actually come, but atleast allot of them petended to give a shit.
the other day i ate at kings diner in Altuna PA and my bill came to $6.66 josh had the waitress sight his poster of the Angry Mob. brownies.